Feeling the Burn!

Well I have been doing well with the exercise as crazy as it sounds. My legs are killing me and they feel like Jello, but I have persevered and already hit the eliptical and will do Insanity later. Eating has been on track with the exception of 3 bites of cake yesterday and today. I am allowing myself these treats in emergencies. I either kill the craving with a tiny amount or eat the entire piece. This has worked and I will be glad when the cake is gone. I might actually threaten the hubby tonight to finish it off. Out of sight out of mind.

Keep wishing me luck......

Motivation at last

Yikes can't believe how long it has been since I posted last, its been weeks. I am still having the same troubles I did before. I can't stay on this plan. I have been trying, struggling in fact yet it won't happen. I am starting to wonder if I don't want the weight loss that badly and then it started. Motivation started coming to me.. and finally, finally yesterday as I stepped on the scale and tried on my skinny jeans... and I almost blew a gasket. My skinny jeans that almost fit perfectly are now getting to tight where I can't almost button them and the scale is still 6 pounds heavier than I want it to be. I realize I have extra water weight on me but nope those pounds have stayed for 2 months now.... they ain't leaving.

Surprisingly the weight hasn't motivated me it was the jeans.... I said oh HELL NO..... I will was so close to wearing those Ralph Laurens and I will again. Needless to say that my mind spurred on working out days ago but the jeans, well let's just say I've eaten on plan since yesterday and plan to until all the fat that I want is gone. I might make little mistakes here and there but I am human. I am just done feeling this way. Done with the low self esteem, done with feeling the fat, done with being unhappy with my body.

I did find out that the eliptical machine seriously kills the thighs and I just about wanted to die doing 15 minutes of the insanity workout. Obviously my cardiovascular strength sucks and I need to fix it. There is no magic pill to help, no weight loss plan can make the cardio easier. Yes I do understand the weight does not help but I shouldn't feel like i'm going to die doing these cardiovascular workouts. So here I go. On with this journey which this time is to be healthier. My husband is in bulking up mode and maybe all of my pounds will magically fall of me and onto him....lol.. probably not but its a dream anyway. But his motivation helps mine I will say. He wants to be smoking hot for me and I want to be the Trophy wife.....lol..

Wish me luck and I feel I will definitely be posting all the time to vent my frustrations......