Well this is definitely not the first time I've said this but I'm hoping its the last so here is goes... Here I go AGAIN!!! Yep that's rights I've managed to gain back about 13 of the 19 pounds I lost last summer and to say I am only dissappointed doesn't even begin to notate how I feel.
I feel like a failure- I am so extremely disappointed with myself I can hardly stand it, the shame of my size 14 getting snugger in the ass ( so not cool)- I am almost to the point of some selfhatred for the simple reason of knowning that I had it gone and it should have stayed gone. I guess I didn't anticipate that even though I stopped the 6 WBMO and continued to eat similarly, I didn't anticipate wanting to eat somewhat normal with my family.
I came to the realization that I need to find a way to take off this weight that ties me down mentally and somewhat physically in a better way. I bought the eat right for your blood type and have learned a few tricks on what I should and shouldn't be eating for a healthy me, not for weight loss but for health. I can make lots of excuses as to why it didn't stay off but the main reason is me and me alone. I knew better, and I know what works and doesn't work for me.
Currently I have contacted my doctor for hormonal and possible thyroid issues. I feel not normal and have gained a few pounds in the last month with eating and exercising normally... So I am wondering if I have some physical hinderance inside me that I need to fix. I shall find out on the 27th......I can honestly say I hope something turns up abnormally and they can help me feel more energized and normal hormonally (I'm like a crazy woman over here...lol)
So if you are wondering what I will be doing this time it is simple, I have known it all along, eat fewer calories and exercise. With the help of Sparkpeople.com, I get to track calories , workouts, and water. This site has great info, success stories, blogs, HELP when needed all for FREE!!! Yep its FREE.... I officially started using the site yesterday and of course I was over my allotted caloric intake by 250, so not to bad really but still BAD!!!!! I am hoping that I can get my head in the game and make good choices but allow life to happen......
Will post later with results......Oh in case you are wondering... Starting weight today: 183 :( Picture is of me a week ago!!!!
