Progress

Well this week has truly been a mental struggle for me. Trying to figure out if I can make myself do this again and I think I am getting there. After recent hardtimes in our family I do believe I have the mental capacity to make myself do this.... crossing my fingers. I have been marking down eating in Sparkpeople but not all day. So today is the day.. I have already marked breakfast and I am finding myself torn between not wanting to give up my delicioius coffeecreamer that costs me about 100 calories a morning... Yuck. really 100 calories coffeemate, isn't there a way to create a super tasty version that has no calories. Sugarfree is yucky...blah.....oh well I am willing to sacrificee or workout harder. lol

Well I am recently spurred on for working out by my baby sister, she is now a certified pole instructor and looks amazing. I will be finding pole dancing dvds and use my support beams as my pole in the basement. lol....

To keep myself on track I have decided to set a 10 pound goal for myself. When I reach that goal I get to go and get my nails done. Yeah buddy. So looking forward to nails again...lol....

Wish me luck until next time.

Think it will stick

Well I have decided once again to try this weightloss get healthy lifestyle. I am still self loathing but have not been willing or wanting to change so I decided here I go again. I don't know what is different if anything but I know I want to be where I was a year ago. I felt so much better about myself. I want to see a size 12 hell maybe a 10, at this point I don't even know if that is possible.

What has changed; well I do know my attitude and acceptance that I shall never be super skinny it simply is not in my genetic make up or body and that is okay. Cause honestly beneath my layers of fat I love my figure and will love it more later.

Wish me luck and here I go again!!!