Here I go again!!!!

As I am starting this 6 weeks of hell all over again I decided I best change a few things. As I believe you cannot truly see my weight loss only in my face I decided to switch up my photos on board. The first is taken May 2009 which is 6 months after my last son was born. I have to say when I see my current photo in comparison to my older one I can say I see a difference. some in my face and all over my body. But (my friend Dawn loves my but's....lol) My BOOBS are no longer that nice. still large ( I only dropped the band size not a cup size) but no where near as perky and enhanced by milk. So this is why I will definitely, I mean most definitely be enhancing myself, to regain my youth.

I have been neglecting my blog and for this I am sorry. I need to get back, back to the eating routine, back to writing out my successes and failures, and hopefully keep feeling great. So after my month long hiatus of eating shitty food ( which was really yummy food indeed), technically not to bad though. I went on vacation for 2 weeks and survived 2 periods and I gained a total of 4 pounds back. Which I do believe is all water retention because I was eating salt again. (of course I feel like my fingers and toes are little piggy's since we got back 1 1/2 weeks ago, so I'm pretty sure that water is the culprit)...lol... oh well time to get this off.

I had been begging, begging for negative motivation-- much to my dismay I did not receive much help.. My sister tried with her weak willed attempts and still does because she loves me but they are not working. My close friend flat out refused and my hubby he just laughed and said NO..... But I finally, finally found some motivation. If I expose the culprit it might stop and then I would be sad.. so for right now I will leave it a mystery and hopefully my plan is to keep on track. So how is my progress you say well let me tell you.

I thought today being day 1 ( and since I have been eating whatever I want whenever I want) I thought that I would truly be starving... But ironically I only got seriously hungry around afternoon snack and it was time to eat so all was well. I will admit to sweet cravings tonight but nothing that a little water and fruit won't cure. So how do I rate today.. actually pretty good. Not as bad as I remember or maybe I felt like I was eating worse than I actually was. .....lol... which is probably true to some degree. I mean don't we all see the worst in ourselves. I believe we do. I keep telling the friends I have another solid 20 maybe 25 lbs before I will be truly happy and they laugh at me and tell me I am skinny but I just don't see it. I see small changes but I know what I look like naked.....lol.. and yeah it ain't pretty. So on I forge...

Now we shall see if I can finish this journey of if I must be on this for a few more months. Wish me luck and I'll talk with you soon.