Things that make you go Hhmmmm

Well in this last few days what is new... Well I can honestly say I'm not down as much as I wanted to be this past week but truthfully although trying to stay on plan 100%, life happens and you make changes.. So I am kinda beating myself up about it but not too much.

My hubs told me that I need to work my way into this diet like he does with trying to quit smoking. He said just cut out small things not all gung hoe.....LOL.. yeah right. Anyone who struggles with weight know you can't do that. But I have found myself doing just that.

I will say my mental struggle this time is excruciating. I am starved all the time and water is not cutting it. I am hoping this is a sign, a sign that is telling me that my body is a hotrod and I'm running on premium......LOL.. But, sometimes I think its just cutting down the normal portion to tiny all over again. Although I have found that even though I am stuffed I still want to eat crap.. not physically needing to eat but mentally breaking myself down... Why, why do I do such things. I don't know..

Okay positives we went for approximately a 3 1/2 mile hike on Sunday... yeah... unstable terrain hefting a 26 lb baby in a backpack.. yeah to hills and ass burnage... suprisingly I am not sore today... really thought I was gonna be....so some progress is made.

I am a little nervous for the detour I might make tomorrow. It is my oldest son Gage's 9th birthday and he wanted cheesecake with cherries on top... WHY, WHY... it is like a temptation you don't want to say NO too... It is my most favoritist thing in the world.. New York Cheesecake and cherries... YYYYUUUUMMMMMMMMMYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hopefully a small sliver and I will be good......It's about moderation right.

okay.. will update mid week.. off to hang decorations.....

until later.....Oohhh one more thing. My friend DAWN... is joining me tomorrow... YEAH... someone to feel my pain and struggle with me......